The ups, the downs, the turnarounds.
Riding this roller coaster of a year has been: fun? exciting? scary?
Interesting, no doubt.
Despite feeling I am in the midst of finding order within chaos, I close this year with nothing but gratitude.
I am happy to have strengthened relationships with people I respect and value.
They have reassured me that:
I have hands to grab on to when I look for one to hold.
I have ears that will listen when I need to be heard.
I have mouths that will comfort me when I seek words of wisdom.
Because I continue to be in a constant search for meaning. And having them close has made me find clarity within that search, reaffirming me that the decisions I took are the best decisions I could have taken and giving me the confidence to move forward.
I am happy to have met people that challenged me to my deepest levels.
Not for having them teach me lessons about what to say or not say, what to do or not to do, but for making me reconsider my words and my actions, allowing me to envision a better version of myself and the person I strive to become.
Most importantly, I am happy to have stumbled — hard.
Because now I have a full year ahead of me that will see me stumble and fall all over again.
Only this time, I know I won’t fall as hard. And if I do, I will pick myself up and laugh it off.
Because here I am, looking at my past self, laughing at those moments when I felt I couldn’t make a sense of myself. And heck, has life ever been serious?
I envision myself a year from now, joyfully laughing at the fact that I was laughing it all out…
My promise: if I cry harder, I’ll laugh even louder.
